Am I a temperamental bitch?
Sometimes I feel like one and I've certainly been called one before. I admit I have a bitch in me (don't we all?). And to be honest, I'm tired of keeping her in all the time! Gosh, I'm just tired of feeling bad about letting her out every now and then. Okay, okay, I'm not saying that it's acceptable to go around being bitchy for no reason. But you know, sometimes you need to be able to find out if someone can handle your bitch (aka the bitch within). Especially if they deserve it.
(I feel a little B&D'ish after writing this, LOL).
Okay, so can ya'll tell me if I was a bitch in this situation? Some background...there's this guy I'm sort of "talking" to. We've known each other for a couple of weeks and we seem to have really hit it off. He's been sweet and considerate so far and goes out of his way to show his interest. Like, since the last time we hung out, he's been doing everything he can to see me again. That same evening he kept asking when we were going to watch this movie we talked about and his suggestion was "tomorrow". Last night he kept trying to convince me to meet up again, but I was busy. We ended up staying up chatting all night anyway. Anyway, the point is that he is obviously interested. Since I had to cancel our movie thing last night (I gave him at least 5 hr notice), I asked him when he wanted to do it instead. He said he had to check on whether he had a test the day after next (Thursday) because it was either that day or the following week and that he would let me know today when his test was so if he wasn't on Thursday we could watch the movie tonight. And that he really hoped he got to see me blah blah. Thing is...I didn't hear from him all day. To be fair, I went to bed at 5:30 am chatting with him and he wasn't planning on going to sleep yet, so I'm sure his day started sometime early afternoon. But still, it was 10 pm and nothing. So I text him saying "are you alive?" I know, I know...I told myself I wouldn't, but... He texts me back almost right away and here is the text convo:
Me: You alive?
Guy: Yeaaa I'm alive . Sorry, I've been busy since I woke up and haven't had a chance to text you. I don't have a test tomorrow but I'm working on a homework assignment, I think I'll give up on some problems! I can't solve them . So what you up to?
Me: Too busy to text!!!
Guy: I swear I didn't check my phone or looked at it since I woke up!! Not even facebook. But I'm going to get on fb now.
Me: (no reply; log off of facebook)
about 1 hr later....
I log on to fb and he immediately starts chatting with me. Asking me how I am and what I've been up to, etc. I pretty much give him the cold shoulder all the way through the convo. He asks me to hang out now and I say "what? no". He says "what's wrong? you sound really mad at me." Anyway, to make a long story short...I tell him I'm disappointed that he didn't think to text me like he said he would and why it bothered me. That I realized he didn't owe me anything and it was possible I was overreacting, but it was how I felt and the being the type of person I am, I have to express how I feel one way or another. I can't just act like I'm not upset. I also say, "well im not good enough to follow through with what you say but im good enough for a last minute thing? i dunno, it's a little insulting."
So he continues to apologize and goes through his whole day and how hectic it was. He says he didn't wake up til 6pm. I won't go into all the details but it does sound like his day was pretty hectic. When I texted him he was still in his study group and when he got online he had just gotten home. He insists that we see each other so we can talk about it in person. He truly seems distraught. Says that his friends went out to play pool and he stayed just so he could chat with me and hopefully see me. In spite of all that and after much insistance on his part, I still refused to see him and closed by saying that we've already talked and we're fine. Yet I'm still acting cold. I can't just switch like flipping a switch. He is sad. A couple of minutes later he changes his status to "Had a bad day and guess what! It gets worse and worse!! SO FUCK ALL THAT SHIT!" (:redface.