Like many of you on this board, I have often wondered why I am the way I am, or exactly what it is that I am. I love the Socionics system and have tremendous regard for its systematic approach to psyche, types, and their interaction, but have the belief that the true essense of the Self is constantly in flux, and although there are certain tendencies people are disposed to, the Self is essentially a product of your environment, which is also in flux. Having said that, I understand that I can never really know who I am in comparison to others since perspectives are incommensurable and in flux.
Now, this is just to build up on some outlandish musings I've had on my type. A friend on the wikisocion had suggested that perhaps I am a super-Se INFp. This seems to make a lot of sense because I have uncanny insight into the people and environment around me and have achieved states of what I can only refer to as hyper-awareness. I can see through people easily and usually, depending on my mood, can easily see the very worst in people. This all seems to accord with extroverted sensing:
authority, influence, desire, political interest/personal investment, competition/struggle, willpower, impact, force, appearance, readiness, tactics, territory
Being the IEI that I am, I am very much introverted intuitive which is obviously my base function. I live in my mind and can easily see patterns that can/have/will occur in time. These are general, larger picture patterns but I have also had some insight into the patterns within people as well. My Fe can very easily manipulate people without effort and without me being aware of it. I've noticed that I can make women fall in love with me easily and can also cut people's ego in half if Im pushed to it.
Another musing of mine is that maybe I am actually, genetically an ESTp who has been raised in special circumstances, that is in captivity under the oppression of my older sister. Throughout my childhood, she had done a very good job of isolating me and instilling the fear of the unknown into me and making me a very much introverted child growing up. I think this gave me the opportunity to develop my psyche fully and to harness latent gifts and also to search for meaning in my life, and what it is to be a good person... very much introverted introspective. I have spent a lot of time reading about type when I was in my early teens and perhaps subconsciously chose the most ideal type, that is INFp, at least, perhaps, the most agreeable to all, and have been directing my repressed ESTp Self to this ideal ever since.
At this moment, I am that IEI intuitive subtype now. I have no affinity for extroversion, perhaps by my upbringing, or perhaps genetically. I have very developed intuition. I prefer to operate on my feelings, but have a well developed thinking function, at least I think I do. I am pretty lazy and Ni rules all so am an irrational P as well.
I am fairly young and perhaps can develop all elements equally and uitilize each function according to necessity, becoming a true uber XXXx.
Any thoughts? different perspectives on nature vs. nurture, evolutionary perspective? outlandish fantasy?