(this is all ficticious, and for fun.. not profit)
so i was sitting heer feeling like shit. my mind in a bit of a tail spin. thinking, thinking, then thinking some more.
and i'm sick of god damn fucking thinking.
so i started looking for clarity.
so here goes -
INFPs.... it seems that I like INFPs......
There doesn't seem any doubt.
BUT THEY FUCKING HODGE PODGE.. NEVER ENOUGH SLACK .. SLOW .. SKEPTICAL... SUSPICIOUS WEARY... blah blah... seem to try always try to keep me at a bit of a distance.
So here I'm thinking, maybe I'm not a fucking SLE. Because I get fucking impatient. And I screw thigns up. And then they seem to disappear. And they're not there. And I'm like stuck. And then they're there and I'm still stuck and then I can't blame anyone.
So - maybe I'm not a SLE... Or maybe who I think is an IEI.... is not an IEI...
Okay so let's start from the start. It seems IEIs like to sya things like "I'm not good with strangers" or "I'm not usually like this" when you just fucking meet them. How can you not usually be a way when there's nothign to compare to. You're who you are in the fucking moment. None of this "I'm being weird" or uncertainty or doubt or any of that bullshit.. and if you're not good with strangers, why the fuck would you want to tell someone. Just fake it 'til you make it.
Anyway - enough about that -
So I think this girl I like is IEI. And she seems closer than she used to seem. But it's been like a year. And I don't know her and blah blah. At first in interactions she seemed to be hardly be able to speak. But - I haven't been doing the bullshit-ramble-on-about-anything in public for a while now -
I mean - sometimes I roll. and I just say anythign or everything. Sometimes people just spontaneously open up to me. Sometimes, everyone seems to be my friend until I say something stupid like "I don't have any friends" and then people get all doubt ful and shit and I have to prop them out, or decide to stand on my own.
Now, if I'm a SLE. I talk too much or not enough .. and IEIs they have fucking short attention spans. That's the way they come. That's the way they are. It's because they're weak, and fickle. And if you doubt this - ask them - and they'll reluctantly admit it. Or they'll try and get you to something for them "beacuse you're so strong, and capable". The other thing about them is that they're manipulative.
So you tell them that they're not very good at something, and they'll try and get you to show them how it's done. And then they'll start listing all their problems, and all these things they don't know how deal with and shit until you tell them to stop talking. And then they will. That's the other about them they're obedient most of the time. So say - you're in a bad mood - and you tell them to leave you alone - you'll find that they'll leave you alone. But they'll keep leaving you alone, and leaving you alone. Because they'll decide that means that you should constantly leave them alone. And they wouldn't want to annoy you. Now this "leaving you alone" means they're fucking ages away, and they'll hardly be in contact. If you question them about this their cell phone will be broken, but their friends phone works, but their friend doesnt' want you to have their number, because someone said that you said or did something or other complicated, and they won't have the balls to juts be like - GIVE THE FUCKING NUMBER, instead they'll try and persuade you to "show" this friend of theirs that you're not a bad person, whilst you're busy trying to do something else, and they'll say how it's "more important" than what you have to do. Then when you say that your thing is important, they'll ask you what it is, then they'll pretend to listen, and then cut it down and be like that's not important, all the while, you're like WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO COMPLICATED.
Then when you get impatient, and just tell their friend to give you their number, they'll try and block their friend from giving their number out saying that you're just using them, or that "he" should learn to be nice and not so demanding. Or that they'll charge their cellphone tommorow or something else rediculous.
And then even if the friend of theirs is like, "I don't mind" the INFp will still try and block, because they'll then decide that because their friend is more accomodating than them, you'll just take the easy path, and want to spend time with the friend when they're rung, and not them. Because they don't spend all of their time together. And then even if the friend says soemthing like they spend a lot of time together, they'll all be like "BUT NOT ALL OF THE TIME"... And then, if you go and get the friends number later. They'll lament, and complain and gripe and blah blah.
So - anyway -
I've decided now that the most productive use of my time is to rant about anything and everything.
Let's start some motion.