cd I'm working on

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

rough draft of a song I'm working on called 'Contradictory.'

Act how they do on tv
But then sorta don't
come on baby
gotta get rid of contradictory

You think you string me along
But I've learned to live without you
How could I be so strong?

I never wanted something straight
But my emotions need yanking with
To keep the smell of you fresh

Oh if you wanna do me, then do me already
What is there to 'get to know?'
Nobody's that complicated
Nobody's that special
(Seriously) Except you
(Sarcastically) Except you

Your head needs to come down around from up and below
We say we just wanna feel pure love ya, pure love....
But there's no Earth Goddess to your Father Sky and,
The thought of never feeling your maw makes everything die

Can you take me
Without me being gone
(You can fuck me close to death and then stop)
Can you have me, while I keep myself too

We get lost and found and lost again
It doesn't have to be that hard
Just gotta get rid of contradictory
And then don't

[Gilly]

Pretty cool, on the whole. I like the feel of it. It's very you: vulnerable, honest, but unashamed and brave at the same time.

I think you could do better than "need yanking with," though. Also the "fuck me close to death" is a bit out of place; it's way more graphic than the rest, and although it fits with you it stands out as gratuitous with regards to the rest of the lyrics.

Overall, I like it

[Not A Communist Shill]

This song reminds me of Personality Crisis by the New York Dolls.

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

You say I put a pretty bow on things
A bow on shit and death
Is still shit and death

I'm sorry I have the social worker glaze
I'm sorry I'm still in a boyhood daze
I'm sorry that my soul has been in a maze

I change nothing
I'm an artist
I just inspire you to do
What you already knew you should have done all along

I'm a cheerleader
Then a warrior
And I don't know which role is more wrong

I'm trying to break through, I'm trying to find
What is beyond boys and bows
And the nothing boys and bows bring

We've painted over the real for so long,
Nobody ever knows... because once you do know,
You just die, and then what's the point and
When I'm real it would just make you cry

So you'll know a little better, when I die....
My bow will become untied

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

Oh you like that straight guy
He makes art, and writes poetry
And all that faggy left-wing stuff
(He even surfs too!)
He's cooler than me, yes
He's hotter than me, yes
You speak for gay rights
But don't like other gays
Where's my bottle of fag b gone when I need it?

But you know deep down, that's not the thing
The only question is, can he be there for you?
I can be there for you

I can't dance,
I can't play sports
I'm not the best
(Actually I'm not that good in much anything)
But I can be there for my man
You sold your soul for style

Oh I just want a real man
Somebody whose ego isn't out of control
I just want a real man
Somebody that knows how to give and take
Somebody who can just be there

Nobody cares but you,
That you're smart and kiss puppies
(And cool and hot)
Nobody cares but you
Oh just get over yourself,
Nobody cares but you
That you wrote a really good story
Just be there for us

Oh you try to fix me because you don't like yourself
Trying to patch up my holes because you don't like the one you got
I don't think you hate yourself, you look too pretty to hate yourself
But you don't like yourself, and son, that can be just as bad!
(And I'm not your job, so buy a clue)

Oh I just want a real man
Somebody whose ego isn't out of control
I just want a real man
Somebody who knows how to give and take
Somebody who can just be there

(You don't gotta be good, just be there
Just show up already, ******!)

[UDP]

these elusive "Real Man" creatures seem very rare indeed - interesting to here your take on it though.

[Gilly]

Good. Harsh , but good.

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

Thank you.

Yeah I realized it's kinda bite-y but I need it to be.

Maybe I can find something to sing about besides being 'gay' but to me all music is gay , I just kinda ... am not so subtle about it, because anything artsy is gay and like self-expressive and shit, so all my songs... or most of them, will be gay-ish. Because being gay is just about like the human need to express yourself no matter what.

Psychology is gay. Human development, is gay. "Wanting to be liked for who you really are" is VERY gay. Anything with the word 'human' in it is pretty much gay. Even if you yourself are not.

If they're not gay, then ... they're not soulful, they're not really music... Life itself is a beautiful slow suicide. Everything is gay. I just think, that's what we all need to embrace.

Hollywood here I come! *snicker* J/k but yeah.

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

Can I tame the beast within
If I'm not hard on me, who will be
Can I quiet the beast within
The monster that just wants me to keep biting
Underground in eternal darkness

You wanted to connect
But I just pushed you away
Fear and love and sex
Blended together to become all the same thing

You had hopes, you had dreams
Now you're singing your sad tune in the darkness with me

Everything feels so dark
Everything feels so bad

The wayward get curious about the dark
With no heroes to save them
It consumed many a potential
You always have that choice, but you feel if it comes all at once
It will kill you
So you settled for tiny sparks, and most days it just doesn't feel like enough

But we can't be perfect, darkness expands
The sun always comes up, and the sun always sets
It's hard to liberate and encourage you when you always seem to be up
But it's a lie, I see the veil - take it off, I won't kill you if you're in pain
I won't kill you if you're in pain
I'm still human, I go for the hurt- I don't go for the kill

So stay down and restrained
Thank the darkness
Kiss the beast
Buy it presents
Is there really any other way
Your time will come if, you just remember that-
Sadness can teach you something
Sadness can teach you something

Nobody wants to be the bad guy I-
Don't think you can still properly internalize
The destruction you are capable of

You are unsure, keep guessing
You are never the one
You can't go at it alone
People want you to be happy, but you know, you have
A lot of work left on you to do. Show your real face,
If it's a vampire- that is fine. Even they need to be loved, but
Oh we still won't let you hurt that person. We still will make you feel like shit for it

Everything can feel - it's not about that, sadly
that doesn't give you a free pass
Because you can deeply feel love, now does it?

Not many people, do it, none of us truly make it, looking at the corpses walking around,
None of us really ever vanquish the darkness within.
Invite death and destruction and eternal suffering easily, or go through a painful long-winded quest to save your spark
There's no god, oh you have to save yourself, we can help you
But you have to save yourself

Don't lie about your spark, you can't lie
Don't be fake like that, don't be a stupid unhealthy 3
The 4s see that shit, roll their eyes and write emo poetry about it

Don't ever lie about your spark,
Fight for it no matter how long it takes. And it will be long, but you gotta remain that
Spark in your eye

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

Not to be a vapid porn star whore
vacant and destroyed by lust

But seriously guy, get a grip
You're not that deep, nobody is

I like to get to know ya slowly over time
But ya try to make it happen all at once
If I'm already there where is there left to go?
Huh, what the hell?! Just take it slow

There's nothing to look forward to
You tell, you don't show
What the hell man

You haven't figured yourself out, just go away
Until you sign the deal, don't bother me
You wanna become this abstract god that thinks he can look in the world
Via generalities

You are physiology more than you are psychology
Get over it babe,
You are just not that deep

I know you have something in there besides maybes
I know you have something in there besides emptiness
I know you have something in there besides misty ideals
I know you have something better to do than to psychoanalyze other people online while doing jack shit in your own life

So just show me already
If it's terrible at least that's something

So just show me already
If it's violent at least that's something

So just be a man already
I am tired of doing this with you

If you just wanna fuck,
THEN JUST SAY SO
(Do I look like I'm stupid or something?)

But fuck you, I also have the power to say no

If you're good then I'll keep ya if you're bad then I'll change ya if you're lost then I'll find ya but you gotta be real and just show

And you're not that deep

[UDP]

Hmm. No offense, but, why is this in general discussion?

[Creepy-bg]

Hmm. No offense, but, why is this in general discussion?

because your mom sucks off indians for spare change.

[munenori2]

Are these lyrics?????

[Creepy-bg]

Are these lyrics?????

mine were

[munenori2]

mine were

lol

[Brilliand]

Hmm... at first I kinda identified with whoever you were talking about, but as I read on I realized it didn't quite fit me... but the way that poem lumps everything together, if it half-fits me, there must be something wrong with it (or my interpretation of it).

I don't particularly think of myself as going slow, because I keep wanting to decide what the relationship is going to be on day 1... on the other hand, at that point I fully intend to wait another two years before having sex (that is, getting married, which comes to the same thing in my book). Astoundingly, people have a tendency to interfere with my sovereign judgment before the two years are up...

Perhaps the problem is in the line "You're not that deep, nobody is"? Because I take exception with that, in and of itself.