that's right, I know I've been typed (by myself and others) as INFp, but hear me out.
This reconsideration is due partly in fact to my disbanding from the more abstract and idealistic notions of socionics I've previously possessed lol.
But now that I'm thinking rationally again, a few things seem significant.
I
am strong in Ti. I am extremely in tune with the internal logical structure of ideas. When listening to people, reading posts, etc, I am always splitting hairs, (de)constructing a system of what they are saying. Most of you might remember I used to believe myself to be INTj. Now, of course, in this previous view I had on socionics, I could be INFp and still be strong in Ti
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Another point: I don't think I'm naturally dynamic - especially Ni: noticing trends, tracking processes, etc. Of course I'm Ni in the ashtonian model, since I'm perceptive and abstract
...but I've come to see Ni isn't that "special" lol.
I also believe I am strong in Se. I don't need someone else to provide the structure and motivation for me (they can, and I work well under it, but it's not necessary imo); I can do it consciously and willfully. For example, a few years ago I simply developed an exercise plan and implemented it almost robotically - every day training hard, eating perfectly. It was classic TiSe shit. Another humorous example that I believe exemplifies Se ego is when I was walking out of a meeting at this military office and these two wannabe gangster spanish guys were outside. I immediately was able to size the situation up objectively - noticing their physical characteristics, the subtleties of their movements, etc, while comparing it to my Ti system of what I believe constitutes certain traits - and decided they were ******s trying to act hard. That's when I got kind of pissed lol, and wanted to kick their ass right there. Obviously Se isn't inherently about fighting, but I felt that I had a strong awareness of my physical presence and control over the environment.
Now, what may have appeared to be Te polr - ignoring factual data - in my previous arguments about socionics was, I believe, an extreme confidence in Ti and Se and an unwillingness to accept anything other than my own view (Ne polr). I could see the logic in arguments and had my own, yet I was simply so confident and absolute (Se) about my own system (Ti base), that I didn't feel the need to argue. I would expect such arrogance from a Ti ego type lol.
Something else that I find interesting: my father and brother are both ENFps. They HATE the way I think lol. Whenever in a debate, I always hit their polrs - especially dad - and come up with systematic explanations for the flaws in their argument. They just fucking ignore it like dickheads, attaching onto illusory Te bullshit, which aggravates the hell out me. *This* is where Se comes in (gets turned on) and I give them a little abrasive beta'ness lol. Now not only have I hit their vulnerable function, but I offset them with a very direct attitude. This also plays out with my INFj step-mom, who likes to sneak in little comments and then go back to hiding like a fucking pussy lol (Se enough for ya??). So in arguments, she tries to pull some Fi shit, as if morals are logic, and I proceed to pick apart the garbage, presumptuous system of hers, and if things get too heated, I'll throw in a little Se to SHUT HER THE FUCK UP. So, yeah, lol...
Some of you may have noticed a change in the content of my recent posts. I have been putting more work into them, and into reading others' posts, while letting go of my dogma and being more objective. Not that ethical types can't be logical, but Ti seems like something that comes naturally to me.