Me: I need stability in my life, and I wish to know what is going on when, but I demand the right/ability to be flexible myself. You all don't want to see my room; in 20 years, I have never developed the self-discipline to keep the darned thing clean. I hate household chores. I hate being told what to do; I would rather be advised, with the final decision left to me. I hate having to assert my authority if I don't have complete control. I'm not usually assertive, and my efficiency, *isn't*; however, I have a tendency to do something my way if I feel it is more efficient (disregarding what someone else would want). My motivation is low (unless it's what I want to do), and to make hard decisions to do something, I may call in someone else to "give me a boost", ie get their opinion to back me up and cement my resolve. I don't tend to pay attention to what's going on around me, and my spatial skills are pretty bad; I tend to hold a hand out as I round a corner so I can feel where it is rather than possibly bump into it. I hate having my intelligence insulted. I prefer one-on-one communication, but a small group's fine in some circumstances. I can cook well, but sometimes I miscalculate and do something wrong. I enjoy categorization to some degree, and I love understanding people. I like passionate people, but I dislike people who come on too strong (emotionally or otherwise). I operate out of my values; I've really had to strain to conform to my parents' after years of passive rebellion, and I still hate it. I have a fast walk. I spend a lot of time in my head, and I love fantasy. I hate confrontation, but I have no problem griping about someone to someone else, nor did I have a problem in adolescence when someone complained to me about someone else. I only take issue with name-calling behind someone's back. I sometimes hold grudges, depending on the offense. I don't plan if I don't have to, and I don't manage time well. I spend a lot of time stuck in the past or worrying about the future. And this is all totally random, I know. I'm not organizing it. I've never been much for conflict, but only recently have I really begun considering other people's feelings. I used to just say whatever without thinking about that what I said could hurt them.
I TILT easily. Ever seen those pinball machines shut down when rattled? My brain has a tendency to do that when it hits overload; it's like it tries to take the information in and make it fit together, but it can't keep up. It's bad enough that I have friends who will do it to me on purpose, for the fun of it. Also, my morals are somewhere in-between conviction and an ability to see the consequences. If I don't foresee consequences, I do it. Or I refuse to think about the consequences and do it, but I'm capable of thinking about them. Get bitten in the butt that way. I have become mediator-ish, able to consider different sides of an issue, but I've been informed (by my parents) that I wasn't always that way. My organizational skills are present, and I use them to make life easier; this encompasses my e-mail and my files. My physical surroundings tend to be abysmal. My financial skills aren't (existent). I have a frustrating belief not in the goodness of humanity by any means, but in the goodness of people around me (ie they wouldn't lie to me, cheat me, etc). That's cost me, and I've become more cynical over the years. And I'm not totally resistant to being told what to do, by any means. If someone needs me to do something, fine. I can be obliging, and I don't always mind helping. I just don't appreciate others telling me how to live my life. I dislike others having power (ie strong influence) over me, but I don't mind having it over them. If someone's afraid of me (healthily so), that's fine and actually quite amusing.
I'm competitive, and I refuse to compete with someone if I'm concerned that I'll lose.
Me as a kid: I've toned myself down a lot since childhood, because people disapproved of me; I was openly rebellious, good with at least some details, impulsive (more so than now), and good at making friends in random places (grocery store, etc). I also spent time making up stories (I was writing character profiles before age 10) and playing make-believe with my toys. Tact was not my strong point.