Secondly, about one's Hidden Agenda. I also don't relate to what you're describing in terms of leadership skills. It's not difficult for me to speak up when I need to or take charge when appropriate. I have confidence in my decision making capabilities as well. The Se Hidden Agenda for LIE's is more about wanting to be independent and free. The Hidden Agenda is what one sees as being the answer to their shitty PoLR. For LIE's this means "I'll never have to worry about providing a comfortable lifestyle for and the physical needs of myself and my family if I have enough money. I'll be able to hire a cook, recieve top of the line medical care if any of us gets sick, hire someone to care for my home and lawn, etc." Unlike one's Role, the Hidden Agenda often is an area in which one can feel the type of longing you described.