I'm thinking if this is all worth it really... It's not like I'm being an ass for no reason, but I'm starting to doubt what really is there to offer in having an NF/ST relation. Why even have one if it's not for practical purposes? Is there a moment when eventually you can understand each other on a deep level? It has gotten to a point that I just don't want to think about "why" others do this and that, and just go "fuck it." Seriously, for what? I really want to know. It's like I think we're on the same page, and then realize that I don't know shit about them (cursing for emphasis). I don't know if there really is a point of complete understanding, and that both parties actually TRY to understand. Personally, I think STs don't try nearly as much though.
I'm rambling, but maybe there are people who think or have thought the same way.