I'm new to the forum and fairly new to socionics. I've been going round and round wrapping my brain around trying to figure out my type. I understand this stuff in theory and can see it manifest in others easily but to see it in myself has been very hard...not very objective with myself.
Here are some things about me that seem to lead me to different types because they seem to contradict each other:
I love theory and have many about everything and main ones about life in general and will talk to anyone who'll listen (is open to) or is seeking advice or understanding on something. But, this drives me crazy because most people don't like "deep thinker, know it alls." So, I wish I could just lighten up and dance all day. And when I allow myself, I am very passionate, colorful, sexy about it. WOOHOO!
I go back and forth between these aspects to myself, very serious most of the time but passionate about my views on life.
I believe being a woman has something to do with it because being a quiet, shy, tomboy little girl was not very attractive to the opposite sex, or other little girls for that matter. So, I went the opposite extreme sometimes and act more Fe to "make friends." I especially do this on the internet and my websites to attract the women who are moms with whom are the ones that my theories can "help."
The internet then has become my Fe "outlet." So am I a closet Fe that was repressed somehow in my childhood? Or a Ti woman that doesn't like analyzing everything all the time and wishes she was more Fe?
And my writing style may not be indicative because I can change that with how I want to be portrayed at the time.
I am very physical in the sense of working out a lot, enjoy sex, play with my kids in sporty, physical ways. But, I am also in my head most of the time even as I play, analyzing things, mostly the meaning of people's behaviors around me, not really being in and enjoying the moment as much as I would like at all.
I am highly spiritual, everything is spiritual, everything is of a higher nature and then manifests at different levels. But am also very politically incorrect and don't like political correctness. I also don't like when people placate and don't tell the truth, as if I can't handle it... no thank you! I tend to tell the truth and think "if you can't handle it, then that's your deal." But, I can be very sensitive to deep emotional issues in people, but I still tell them the truth about them. lol If you hide your head in the sand...you can't grow without awareness...
I believe in people being authentically themselves and living their potential and I allow my children to live and learn what interests them. And I can still be firm, direct, straightforward when things need to get done.
I'm bad at handling money but dream of having lots. I'm a huge messy pig. I hate cleaning but will do it when things get so bad it either stinks so bad or we can't walk or play on the floor or someone is coming over. But I'm meticulous in my knowledge of the psychology and meaning of the behaviors of everyone around me, especially about their childhoods and how they affected them...
I believe we each create our own reality on all levels while still enjoying snubbing that knowledge sometimes to cuss and let off steam while saying "screw it all, it's all too pretentious for me!"
I've been an attachment parenting and unschooling advocate but have also let go of the advocacy aspect in my understanding that each needs the spiritual room to walk their own path, whether I agree with it or not.
I believe there is a grand scheme to life and we each came here with a purpose and type is one aspect that our purposes work through.
I am open to opinions, ideas, whatever...