Ode to my dual, the only man I ever loved

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

to: John (my real-life dual) Yes, it's a dear John letter and his actual name is 'John.' It's so dorkalicious in that special, Charmed-ish way you just gotta love it.

There was nobody left. I had nobody.
An abused kitten kicked around too many times....
But you saw true light in me
And it was so humane, almost subdued how you protected me
But that's why...it was just so real
You just did it, like 'holy fucking shit dude' that was awesome
You risked everything you had to hang out with me
You weren't really THAT much more popular than me - - so don't get a big head
Actually you didn't have any friends either, that's what made it so profound. Like you were defending me defending myself defending yourself defending me?

FUCK. THIS DUAL THING IS THE. SHIT

I didn't think you were anything at first. Or nothing either though
Good or bad...right or wrong. Nothing or a something.
Then you showed your light... an illuminating angel
You wouldn't be able to surprise me if it wasn't like this
If you were all like so likeable from the start.... that would be a temptation
An evil ploy
Or just some other fucking type that's good but not AS GOOD

When we left, it's like I lost my heart....
I wanted to be with you but they wouldn't understand
You are my best friend, and I will love you forever
Even if we just held hands...even if we just gave each other romantic eyes

But fucking god I would let you penetrate me in two seconds. There'd be no question.
I'd just...
Bend over.
Like that.
You more than earned it. It would be a natural instinct...a reflex action of our awesome power.

Not about who's straight, or who's gay. Who's right, or who is wrong
It's about power
And you have it
You gave me your power
I am alive because of you
I know that I have to protect, defend, and help others
Like you protected, defended and helped me
That's all life is about- *that's* the meaning right there

NOW PLEASE ANSWER MY FUCKING MYSPACE COMMENT!

[Cudcat]

John and BulletsandDoves sitting in a tree
K-I-S-S-I-N-G
::

[zenbrat]

By the way, I usually take days to respond to comments, so don't get too distressed.

Haha... it takes me 2 days to forget. Then I feel guilty. Then I forget.

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

By the way, I usually take days to respond to comments, so don't get too distressed.

Ooh thanks for that! But why do ESTps do this? Is it just an ESTp thing? You have to tell me! It just makes us want you even more though...

Is he still gathering his feelings? I know he likes me too, so why isn't he showing up?

God I sound like a typical needy woman in those fucking soaps but I can't help myself, really. *sigh* I did perhaps come on too strong, but I just felt like I was saying what we both already knew what to be true anyway.

[Satan]

Ooh thanks for that! But why do ESTps do this? Is it just an ESTp thing? You have to tell me! It just makes us want you even more though...

Is he still gathering his feelings? I know he likes me too, so why isn't he showing up?

God I sound like a typical needy woman in those fucking soaps but I can't help myself, really. *sigh* I did perhaps come on too strong, but I just felt like I was saying what we both already knew what to be true anyway.

It's just to piss you off.

[Ezra]

omfgroflmfaool @ expression of feelings

[Hot Scalding Gayser]

Hmm.

[Reuben]

Yeah I've also noticed that this ESTp friend I know takes a while to respond always, but most of the time apologizing if I waited too long. Hmm. They're in luck that their duals are the waiters and watchers.

[Ezra]

Sorry, that was mean. I don't know why I said that. My initial reaction to any (especially verbal) expression of feelings is to just laugh to myself. I find it ridiculous, and can't see why others do it, which I will probably get much grief for.