type me based on my recent "experience"
so, after about 4 months abstinence, I decided to puff the magic dragon with some friends yesterday. I'm making this post because of certain perceptions and cognitions I observed in myself in a relaxed, unrestrained environment and mindstate and was hoping to get feedback on certain functions they possibly correlated with. so.....
At first I was social, but as I went deeper into the high I realized I was forcing it and that what came naturally was for me to go off on these abstract tangents with little attention paid to what was around me. I would sit, seemingly paralyzed, for 5 minutes and then suddenly come out of 'the zone' and attempt to make some conversation to compensate for my (self-perceived) aloofness. If I had to describe the consistent way I thought, I would say, abstract, visual and global - I had trouble functioning physically because, one, I was knocked out and hadn't eaten, but also because I was so busy thinking - it took me 15 minutes to use the bathroom. The fact that we did it out on his back porch where we were visible unnerved me - I spent a large amount of time coming up with contingency plans for every possibility, i.e. moving my car so the cops wouldn't get the tags if they came to his house, mapping out a complete physical escape route based on different ways people could see/catch us - all of the guys there said 'fuck it, you're being too paranoid', but I saw how the shit could develop, they were just being stupid. When I did observe, it was usually the people, and I would focus on their underlying motivations and traits and then associate those perceptions with mostly visual metaphors or representations, like animals, shapes, just any symbol. I really spent the whole time going back and forth between theorizing and worrying about the cops coming to ever just 'chill', but I'm glad I did it because it just relaxed me and I had some very interesting perceptions.
So, what I'm wondering is what you think about the stuff I mentioned, specifically how it relates to Ni, Ne, Te, or Ti - I know those are my strong functions...I'm pretty sure you can tell sensing is weak from the description and my feeling is fairly weak, I remember making some derisive jokes and was just more in touch with my theoretical framework than the vibes in the room or w/e. I can give more details if necessary.
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Originally Posted by Blaze
