EIE or IEI?
I have been comfortable with IEI for quite some time but after some thinking about how I would act if I didn't have certain instances of social anxiety, I realize that I am in love with being in the spotlight, receiving attention, being around people/crowds. Especially based on Expat's simple tests, it is quite obvious I can be seen as a Beta Extrovert.
It really is only fear that holds me back .. most of the time, I am extremely smiley, friendly, - it's my main mode of communication with others. I compare myself to other IEIs (knowing this isn't the most fool-proof way to know type but eh) and see a lot of differences between them and I. I crave the limelight, they actually enjoy being alone for long periods of time .. wtf? I made a post about how I am intimidated by a group of really attractive people, but in all other circumstances, I am definitely the smooth talker, the center of attention.
I value a ton, I know that's for sure. I seem to have more of a hidden agenda as well - I've seen it through how I really want to be powerful, be in control .. or "seem" as if I am in control and know what I am doing. I constantly like to play myself up in my own mind and even to others (not the point of being annoying though) so I can show them that I can get things done. When people ask me to describe myself my first words have always been: Determined, Ambitious, Driven and Passionate.
My test answers to a lot of the User created tests such as Expat's (as mentioned before) and Joy's as well have all placed me in the EIE category.
Most of my close friends are dominants ... LSI or LII. I don't seem to connect with SLEs much but that doesn't make sense cause they are my activity partner? I just don't come into contact with them ... really don't know any around here. Also, I have a close SEE friend which made me think we were Semi-duals but upon further examination, that could just be because we were friends since Grade school. Other SEEs really annoy me, .. Another thing is that I am infamously bad with SLIs and definitely feel as if we are conflictors. They freak me out and it seems like we always misunderstand eachother and they start to hate me.. a lot. ESEs I get along with quite well most of the time ..
What else would really distinguish me as being an EIE? I know it's pretty down to the wire here, lol and like most people would be like eh, who cares, you're Beta NF and that's that, but I'd like to know. I always equated Optimism with Positivism as well but lately have come to hear a lot of Negativism in everything I say.