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Ezra
Since everyone's at it, I may as well join the fun.
Based on this description of me, what type am I?
I'm a very planned-out and goal-orientated person. If I apply myself enough, I can get results. However, there are instances where I lack the will power to complete my tasks. On occasion, in the near future I'll restart them. But I will always search for a reason or excuse as to why I have not completed the task I set out to do. For example, if it's to do with working out everyday, I'll say after having not done it for a few days 'yeah, well, it's pointless anyway. Look at me. I don't even need to work out. I look fit enough and I'm pretty healthy'. My health and aesthetic appearance is of importance to me. If I saw myself descending into poor health, I'd sort myself out, no question. But if I think I am healthy or fit, I see no need to develop myself further.
I spend a lot of my free time alone, which is normally spent online, playing games, reading, watching films or listening to music.
When I'm with my two close friends, we decentralise, and do our own thing. I do pretty much what I do on my own either with or without them. Occasionally we'll go on a walk and take pictures. Sometimes we talk about each other's traits and how we can develop them and about our prospects in careers, love and life in general.
When I go out, it's normally because I want to catch up with old acquantances. The atmosphere I need is not a loud, abrasive one - I like a quiet drink in a not dead but friendly bar. I don't appreciate clubs very much. After a while of dancing, I just get bored. But if the music's good enough, I can dance and enjoy it.
I love talking for hours with people about politics, philosophy and other world issues, whether they're my own age or fifty years older; doesn't make a difference to me. I love to express my views, and to have others express theirs. I don't tolerate people who ramble on at me - I like a conversation where the balance of talking is equal, otherwise it feels like a one-way lecture, which I have no time for.
I also love to learn, and apply this knowledge to everyday life. In college, I would often apply seemingly irrelevant knowledge to the course I was on (i.e. in philosophy, introduce Castro's and Stalin's regime in some way to like "it's interesting to see how Castro eliminated the Trotskyist faction in Cuba - it would seem that he was not part of a vanguard party after all. Thus, why is he still in power if he is a communist? It doesn't make sense") just to show it off. Sometimes I'd do it for entertainment purposes because it was so audacious.
I don't like working i.e. as in part-time work. I'd rather live off loans and the bare minimum when I go to uni, because I am confident in my ability to later pay it back when I get the chance to enter into the professional, real money-making world. The idea of doing menial, dead end office jobs or working in a call centre, Currys or supermarket for the rest of my life sickens me. I need ambition; I need the prospect of being able to 'go somewhere'. I need open-endedness.
I'm choosing law as a career for many reasons, which reveal quite a lot about me.
Firstly, the money involved is appealing. I personally see a large income as crucial to the enjoyment of life. First, it means I can secure the future of a family (I hope) I have. I can watch my children grow up with the best possible education and life in the best possible place. This is in some ways related to my own life. It isn't exactly the shithole of the world, but I can see myself getting into much debt at uni, and my family is poor. I want to make sure I can pay for my children's education so they have the best possible opportunities in life. This will give me much enjoyment - I love to see people I've helped make it on their own. Second, it means I know I'm doing something that provides me with an enjoyable last 30 years of my life, as well as the (small) amount of time off I get (law is immensely time-consuming).
Secondly, the prospect of self-employment is very attractive. Three quarters of barristers in the UK are self-employed. Again, this is related in part to my own life. I despise being subordinate to anyone. I don't mind the idea of having a teacher to 'teach me the trade' i.e. a barrister who I must shadow for a certain amount of time before I become a qualified barrister, but the idea that I must suffer years of being bossed around by someone higher that me is insufferable.
Thirdly, there are the ethics. It is the idea that justice must be had. I'm going to be a defence lawyer, because I believe that no matter what the defendant has done, they deserve a just trial. I have no such concern for mercy. I am just, through and through. When I hear stories of children that have been condemned for life after the police told them that if they admitted to it, they would let out after ten years, and that they're still in there after half a century, it infuriates me. When I heat of unfair trials thanks to the fact that the defendant represents an ethnic minority, it only motivates me more.
Lastly, is the idea that law is hard work. I love a challenge. And I like coming out better at the end of it. I see life as meaningless, and thus I feel it important to make our own end of it. Since there is nothing to do but enjoy ourselves and fuck for procreation, I've decided that I'd like to push myself to reach my full capabilities as a human being.
However, I might enter into politics. The idea of being at the top; boss of myself; untouchable is appealing. My overall goal is to become my own person though, so that I rely on no one at all - in fact, I want people to rely on me, but then make it on their own once I've done them the favour of taking them under my wing. I value independence immensely, and while I'm not always independent (currently I'm pretty much the opposite) I don't like to talk about it, because it makes me seem weak or incapable of fending for myself - nothing is worse than being perceived thus.
My Type
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