Its becomming clear to me lately that im an observer of social situations a lot more than a participant. Im starting to realise im an Ne subtype. Whenever i meet a new group of people, i feel like a seperate entity from the group, split apart just watching. I will talk to anyone who engages me and sometimes put my two cents in but im just not a big talker. Im less of a talker in fact than my INFj or ISTp friends. Im pretty good at faking that im not uncomfortable though so no one really worries about it.
I couldn't explain exactly what im observing as i dont think i even know. I saw a guy on another table picking up a girl tonight and i looked over a little later and he looked me directly in the eye with some sort of fear or hesitance. Not hestiance from me it was to do with girl he was talking with. He wasn't totally confortable with what was going on and im probablly wrong but he wanted something? I was at the local sports team today and i was cheering and excited but still felt split apart. I was just pondering how AFL football seems so important to all the supporters lives. Perhaps its a lack of Se.
Anyway sorry to post about me. Im just confused. Ive always been confused im not sure what my social role is. Its like i float above normal social interactions and cannot ever totally take part. There must be a way to bend this in my favour? Maybe i need to just participate more i just dont know.