What do you suggest I do for my situation. I feel so bored and jaded...and please don't say try do new things, because I do a lot of things already and it just makes me feel dead inside. Like I do something and conquer it really fast and then it just looks small and pointless. EVERYTHING FEELS DEAD INSIDE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Please no 'get off the internet and get a life' posts. I do that a lot already. It isn't about that.
And please don't say it's fear because I'm not afraid, it's just worthlessness. I don't see the point of doing ANYTHING.
I want the fire baaaaaaack.
I'm asking because I really do not want to start using drugs or develop an addiction. I saw my best friend nearly destroy herself 'just to feel' so I want to be very careful though I have the urge right now just to totally fuck up my body. I'm just so NUMB. I have a job, I just got a new car...what the fuck could it be? I don't know. I've lost all desire to have sex, like the instinct just died down. Everything just suddenly seemed to stop working. I feel like I'm already dead.
*cry cry cry cry cry* (Yeah right my tear ducts are too dry to cry.)