The first mistake is unnoticed - it is the dependency that build up without awareness, the root is hidden in plain view, as it comes under the guise of good feelings, closeness. The second mistake is the visible mistake, the 'external problem', that you see and react to. this is what you think is the cause of your suffering. And yet, all that it really is is an event in time, undualized, neither good or bad. The third mistake is thinking the second mistake is what caused you the pain you feel now, when in fact, the source of the pain is the depedency you initiated in the first mistake. The first mistake grew under the right conditions, and succesfully bloomed pain and suffering. The first mistake was attachment to something, an expectation or an idea, a solid vision of "the way things should be", often going directly to your favor. The first mistake is that of the ego, the mind's sense of self.
[11:12:23 PM] : the ego is the selfish idea of "me" and "my", it is what makes the child suffer when the toy breaks... not because the toy has any real value, but because it was associated as "mine", and now a part of "mine" is gone.
[11:12:34 PM] : And so, there is suffering. Suffering in the world.
[11:13:51 PM] : the mistakes are 'sins' - the original word meant "missing the mark", or more accurately, and error. a Misperception. The more you build on that misperception, the more pressure mounts. At first when there is little pressure, the fault is small and the potential is minimum.
[11:14:14 PM] But as more is built on that fault, the pressure increases. And then, suddenly, once the last threshold of the faulty structure is breached, all the built up energy and expectations.... is lost. Gone. The instantaneous energy shift is felt, and pain is experienced. Pain is experienced, the mind wonders why.
[11:15:46 PM] : The ultimate remedy is to not make the first mistake - to always be present and leave no room for delusion.
[11:17:27 PM] : The remedy for when you are at mistake three is to realize what happened in mistake one, and realize the entire series of events was misguided from the very start. By accepting the origin of the mistake, the pain collapses, there is nothing to take seriously.
[11:18:03 PM] : The peace that always was returns. The peace that always will be remains, regardless of the momentary happenings, the thick of thin things.