Youth. When everybody pays attention to you and your youness. It's hell but heaven at the same time, as the universe really does revolve around you. Society must give you an ego, so they rape themselves upon you. There is no way to avoid this. Well I think as adults we re-center ourselves back home, or something.

They won't just let you be a drifty introverted fag off to the side, like you naturally are- waiting for somebody to know what you're thinking and smile at you like sailor...

Division of "I" and "me". "Me" is what others see in me, like I'm a mirror--why there's an infinite nebula of "Mes", as they're a result of an infinite number of contexts. And why I struggle to have an "I". This observer can't see himself, just all these differing responses that he can't relate to.

...

Maritsa is Beta IEI

thePirate made a good post so I wanted to put it here, and my response, to remember for later

...