"Someone's out there right ? What if he was the one ? What if I wrecked something that could have been perfect ? What if it was my fault ?"

Another wandering soul. I think we have all felt this way at some point, on some level, to some degree. This sort of thing resonates with the human condition. After everything went to shit with my marriage and then my ex on top of that, I really started to feel that way.
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I look back to those times when all we had was each other and I think to myself: back then we were richest of all. You cannot ask for more than this.

You are my friend.

Today we hung out and it was cool, another typical day.

You are my friend.

Your car broke down and you are in tears and mad. There's no absolute reason to help you.

You are my friend, I'm there anyway.

Today you were such an ass. You freaked out at everyone and drank too much. You went too far and you got embarrassed. You fucked up.

You are still my friend. We all make mistakes. Imagine how...

Curl up to me little lamb, keep me warm at night. We are together.

Suddenly you bite. Lips curl and the fangs are out. The herd is scattered, you drive them away, you cut, you stab to the core. It is all of us you feed on.

The costume is back on, frolic away. How they adore you. Now I am the black sheep.

Such fury at your malice, I would love to bite - but I cannot carry it out, I am not the wolf here. There are only tears of frustration. This is your...

It's 2.30am.

I was awake, in bed, in the dark, warm, cozy, all the trimmings. I couldn't sleep again. I wrote in my journal, which usually allows me to get everything buzzing around my head late at night out. I spoke to a few friends. I wound down with some quiet music. I mused that my lack of sleep was typically symptomatic of the illness of the person who catalysed this slight insomnia in the first place. I'm thinking about him again. This is completely aggravating. Stress is a...