Allie

so i woke up a couple hours ago and i can't go back to sleep. i dreamt that instead of a ribcage, i just had a birdcage in its place (or my ribcage doubled as a birdcage, whatever) and everyone was trying to coax the little yellow bird out from my ribs. and i was upset and telling everyone to fuck off because it really hurt. as they called the little birdie out, its beak would poke through my flesh and everyone was oblivious to it tearing a hole through me. "come here, little bird" and i'm just screaming because the bird is flapping inside my ribcage. i don't think the bird got out, but i can't recall how the dream began or ended, so maybe?

anyway, what does this mean?

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